Why I shoot boudoir

Why I shoot Boudoir?

The reason behind my why to boudoir is so much greater than just pictures. This is such a soul transformation experience. It is about body positivity, self-acceptance, self-love, and art. It is about feeling good about yourself, laughing, and enjoying your own company. It is about getting glammed up and having time for YOU!

The first time I ever did a boudoir session something inside of me changed and I knew I had to pursue this as my passion. Not only was it a life transforming experience for them but for me as well. I was able to show them something that they didn’t even see in themselves; beauty! From that moment forward I believed that everyone deserved to feel beautiful!

I started shooting boudoir because I saw inner beauty in every person that walked in my studio. And I believed that I could help them se

e it too. Women told me “Oh, if I could only look like that.” But the truth was every stretch marks, scars, and weight made her uniquely beautiful! The truth is that you CAN look beautiful, you ARE beautiful! When I showed them the back of the camera their reaction was priceless. This was truly life changing and meant everything to me.

From that moment on, I made it my job to make them see their inner beauty! Allowing them to see past their scars and imperfections and embrace their beauty!

The Transformation

From the moment a woman walks in the door they feel nervous and have sweaty palms. And this is absolutely normal. Because when someone tries something new who isn’t nervous, right? The experience begins with my make-up artist. This is such an ice-breaker for her as she begins to relax and feel comfortable. “It is almost like hanging out with your girlfriends.” Melanie. When the mirror i

s turned on her she is in love with what she is.

The session then begins. The first series is to get you all warmed up. After the first series is complete, I show her the back of the camera, “Is that really me?” is what I usually hear. As we move into the next and then next series her shoulders drop, she is feeling sexy and starts give those sexy eyes. Raw emotions, laughter and vulnerability start to come out.

By the time the session has ended, we have become friends. We have shared laughter and stories of our lives. This becomes an unforgettable experience that they will always remember.

The day of the reveal, when they see their images in a slideshow their jaws drop because they cannot believe it is them. This is the most exciting part about the experience to me. I get a chance to show with them how beautiful they truly are how I see them, how their spouse sees them. At the end of the day the leave with such confidence and a huge smile and they can’t wait to tell their friends about what they just did.

My Turn

Before I begin my story I just want to let you know that I have always had my parents’ support and love through this whole process. But I just didn’t see it and was blindsided.

My story begins when I was a child. My parents divorced when I was 5 years old. Although, I do not remember the details that followed after their divorce in our family, I do remember other things that would affect me all the way up to my adulthood. To cut things short, my parents did not end their marriage in good terms things occurred throughout their divorce that forced us (me, my mother and 2 other siblings) to leave where our hometown. For the first few years of their divorce, we moved to a couple of different states causing us to go to different schools; “making” new friends, new teachers, and the list goes on.

I remember that as a child, just like a lot of children, I was bullied a lot and I was never really liked but other kids. Which caused me to close up and my “friends” became just me and my mind that I always spoke to. This caused sadness within me, this caused me to think that I was not worthy of friends, or being loved. As time went by, we landed in Vegas because of family. However, my uncle passed away 2 years after our arrival. My mother was ready to move once again but my siblings and I refused another moving so my mom had no choice but to settle.

As time went by, I finished elementary in 3 different schools in town. Middle school and high school were all completed in the same residency. My last 2 years of high school, I fell in love with a man that was 6 years older than me. I felt the comfort that I had been looking for. Deep down I knew this was not going to last but I was desperate to feel loved so I moved forward with the relationship. My mother was opposed to this relationship but knew that if she went against me it wouldn’t end well. So with fear she accepted it. My senior year halfway through the school year he impregnated me.

My whole pregnancy I felt worthless, I had let my mother down, I had let myself down and most importantly the man that I thought “loved” me wasn’t there to care for me. Never went with me to doctor’s appointment to see the growth of our child. Never really asked how I was doing. The delivery came around and because I felt bad he was called to be present at our child’s birth. Those days in the hospital went bad. But still I felt I needed his “love”.

After my son’s birth, I went back to school to finish my medical assisting program I was going both day and night to speed up the process of what I had missed to finish faster. Upon graduation, I started working to provide for our son and him. Up until this point I was still blindsided and worked hard to provide for all three of us. My scars and wounds lied from within. This man was very controlling psychologically and emotionally. Until, one day I realized that I was working so hard for someone that hadn’t changed our son’s diaper all day. That very moment I called it off and asked him to leave.

This was a tough decision because deep down I felt I would never be loved again. But I knew I needed to make this decision. And it was the best decision I ever made. My transformation began after that; I felt free, I felt worthy, I felt I could do it all! I started to see my worth and my self-love began immediately. That one missing piece that I had been searching for all of my life I found it within me! Through my acceptance, forgiving myself, and allowing me to unapologetic for whom I was.

I made a promise to myself that I would not allow myself to let anyone bring me down ever again. That happiness is within me. That my life is beautiful! That I am beautiful! I live by this every day. Today, I am married to a wonderful man, my son is now 10 and I have a 2 year old daughter. I have learned so many valuable lessons in this experience and I want my children to know it too. I want them to accept themselves for who they are! Always know you are beautiful! That no matter how many stones are thrown at you, you get back up and shine!

I want my children to remember me as a mom that will always shine no matter how many stones are thrown at me.

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